When the universe favors you with the moments which are conducive enough to revamp your life, you suddenly feel like a massive bright star in the ocean of blue.
For a very brief period of time when your universe seems within your reach, you try to squeeze the galactic dust tightly in your hand, but it just trickles through your hand. The magical dust which you could have used to shape your life trickles away from your reach. Everything just slips away from your reach. You were given the chance to live the life that you have always dreamed of, but you failed yourself.
It is said that if you are overthinking about happiness, you are doing it wrong. You have done it all wrong. It is also said that you cannot know better until knowing better is useless. You over analyzed every possible situation in your head up to such an extent, that when it actually happened, you collapsed under your thoughts, and after that you locked yourself in your tiny dark cage, and then threw the key somewhere, and after that you realized that you are not strong enough to survive your cage of misery.
To escape the misery, your own self-made locked cage, you wonder what went wrong and soon enough you realize that you were seeking the treasures of your destiny, without wanting actually to live your destiny, and that is why, when the universe favored you a chance that you could only dream of, you failed yourself. There is still a hope. The key is still within your reach, it always has been. In the words of John Green, “The only way out of the labyrinth of your suffering is to forgive.”
Forgive yourself and forget, for everything that comes together can sometimes fall apart. Our universe seeks for chaos. It is the law of our universe. Don’t let the stacks of your faults become your misery.